You suck! Losing my dad has been a heart wrenching experience. I don't feel the same anymore. I cry a lot. I've lost interest in so many things yet I have to continue to be and do. It's hard.. I'm now officially an orphan if an adult can be such a thing. My mother's death when I was 4 was difficult to say the least. It's funny, since her death I've always felt like an orphan anyway. My dad wasn't around, he was in the Navy and at sea and not interested in raising a daughter. As an adult, I never had the courage to ask him why. I just tried to accept that that was his choice at the time as painful as it was for me. No kid likes to feel like their only surviving parent doesn't want them. When I found out he told my third step-mother he didn't think I was his, well, needless to say that was like a kick in the teeth. Now I'll never get to ask him why, Death has cheated me out of answers.
